Community Is Like Family

Oh my goodness! My summer has flown by but I can’t explain how excited I am to share this story with you!  FORTY days ago our world was rocked upside down. One of our closest friends (and best newest employee) was involved in a terrible accident. That day was an absolute nightmare and such a blur. We were fortunate to be with his wife and other close friends that day. This story isn’t to share his story (that’s coming soon in another way) it is to share with all of you how God was there through it all and how I saw his work through his miracle.  One answered prayer from that day was that God could give me strength to be strong for his wife, and he did! One of my very best friends just looked at me like she was saying I know, but instantly I felt peace and was able to be strong when I thought I was weak! 

Community is like no other around our small town and I have been so blessed to get to see it through two good friends’ struggles.  Our other good friend’s son is going through chemo treatments and we have been also fortunate to walk through their struggles with them too. Honestly, their family has been so strong and it has been an honor to see them come out of the struggles with hope.  I have ZERO doubt that God’s hand has been in it all. I would be lying if I hadn’t had doubts over these past few months, but I am so thankful now that our journey has been put on pause to let God use us to pour into these families. I honestly felt that was the first sign that is why we needed a break after this all started. I truly believe that God knew I couldn’t handle that too on top of this! I would be lying if I didn’t feel overwhelmed, but man our Community has blown it out of the water! The support that both of these families have received is amazing! I can’t thank every single person who helped in some form! I know God is using these people to make his work known.  The past months I have literally sat crying looking back at God’s goodness in just a few days of struggles. God’s Hand has been at the front line in both of our friends’ stories and I felt every single blessing.  Honestly, there were many many long nights and some without our necessities, but God taught me that none of that matters without friends and family. Man am I glad I have these friends who are like family!  You see growing up I never had a sister and that was always my wish, but now I know God gave me sisters in many other forms and I AM SO GLAD he did!  Another win is that God showed us how to appreciate the ones that are there through it all and boy did he!  If you know me I am not much of a hugger and boy do I love hugs now! I waited all week for one of the best hugs ever! AND…another non-hugger Clint allowed people to hug him!   Man…a tragic event like these brought many of us friends and family closer and I am so thankful that I have them as members of our community!  God has allowed me to let my guard down and show others my feelings and my heart in more ways than one. 

I pray that he shows you his Goodness in your life!

Proverbs 17:17

A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need.

Who is your friend that was there to help you through your time of need.

P.S. Don’t forget to tell them how much you love them and truly do it! AND..If you don’t have someone like this RUN and find a friend who drops everything to just come spend time with you to make sure your okay during the hard days!

Much Much Love,

Camile

Light in the Darkness

If you know me at all you know me as a planner of all things. I have learned to be more flexible, but ultimately I don’t like when things don’t go the way I expect them to go.  Life hasn’t gone as we planned at all, but I am able to see God’s promise through it all. Honestly the last few moments have not been what I expected at all! STRESS is always high at the end of the school year due, but this year has been such a whirlwind. 

Our fertility journey is being put on hold this summer after another failure.I really struggled the last two summers giving up so much time with our girl so we decided since we are at a cross road of choices it would be best for our family at this time to take a few months off! This really is a hard decision because we now are at four years of waiting to grow our family! BUT I know GOD IS WORKING!!

I am currently seeing it everyday during a hard time with our close friends. GOD SURE is FAITHFUL and I am honored to be walking aside them during this unexpected time.  I am so thankful now that we aren’t busy with our own lives that we can pour our love and energy into their story! This past week has been such a blur….everyday something else amazes us how GOD is HERE and working! I plan to share more on this amazing story but for now that’s it! SORRY for the lonnnnnnggggg wait on my end!

I am closing with this song! WAYMAKER! This is the song that has got me where I am today in my faith journey, but also it is the HEART of our friend’s story! He is working and is our light  in the darkness. 

You are here

Moving in our midst

I worship You

I worship You

You are here

Working in this place

I worship You

I worship You

And You are

Way maker, miracle worker

Promise keeper, light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

And You are

Way maker, miracle worker

Promise keeper, light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

You are here

Turning lives around

I worship You

I worship You

You are here

And You’re healing every heart

I worship You

I worship You

And You are

Way maker, miracle worker

Promise keeper, light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

And You are

Way maker, miracle worker

Promise keeper, light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

And that is who You are

(That is who You are), yeah

That is who You are

(That is who You are), yeah-eh-ay

Even when I don’t see it, You’re workin’

Even when I don’t feel it, You’re workin’

You never stop, You never stop workin’

You never stop, Jesus You are

Way maker, miracle worker

Promise keeper, light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

(I know, I know You are)

Way maker, miracle worker

Promise keeper, light in the darkness

My God, that is who You are

Yeah, that is who You are

(That is who You are)

That is who You are

(That is who You are)

Jesus, that is who You are

Buckets of Water…

I have some news! Even though it may not be the news we want to share but it is GOOD news!  We are cleared to start another Frozen Embryo Transfer this year! I had another robotic surgery back in December, almost exactly like I did last Valentine’s Day.  The last failed transfer cycle they discovered that I had more fluid in my right uterus that was going back and forth to my left uterus, which in my case they believed may have had to do with my failed cycle. They explained it to me that if that fluid is there it causes the embryo to not have anywhere to “stick”. We started to do another mock cycle back in August and that fluid was there again! The weird thing is that some cycles there is only fluid in the beginning, sometimes the middle, and other cycles it isn’t there at all. It felt like another hurdle to conquer.  My doctor was worried to try another transfer and that the fluid may reappear, so they suggested yet another surgery to try to fix the issue. I was so upset that I had to have another surgery. The last surgery recovery was so painful, and I wasn’t interested in doing that again. Again, I had to have faith that God would get me through it just like he kept doing over and over during this season.

This past 3 and ½ hour surgery was successful, they were able to repair more scar tissue from my C-Section, that they didn’t get from my last surgery. They also cut out a another scar at the bottom of my right side and restitched it so that the fluid couldn’t keep going back and forth. After my post-op appointment and ultrasound, it showed that I am back to my pre-pregnancy anatomy, SO I WAS CLEARED to be able to try again! I was so relieved that surgery worked, but right away I let doubt get in the way again! The weeks of waiting and waiting really get to me sometimes. Somedays it doesn’t seem to bother me and other days I feel like a grieving person. I really struggle those days that I see announcements or close friends share their news of joy. I felt like I handed “My Plans” over to God, but I still keep finding myself with them at my fingertips, not wanting to give up total control.

A few weeks ago, another close friend struggling with infertility shared her news, but this news just isn’t any regular infertility success story this is an AMAZING story of God’s work! Weirdly enough I just had gave her all of my left over retrieval meds because she was starting IVF and wouldn’t you know what happened! God blessed her by allowing her to conceive naturally. I wanted so badly to not be envious, but again I let the enemy in.  After talking to her and another good friend, I allowed their words to speak God’s love and promises into my heart!  I even remember telling Clint that it wasn’t fair and why isn’t God giving us our miracle story like that! And you know how he responded, he said we don’t know that Ellie wasn’t our miracle or that our miracle isn’t still coming. AND MAN that hit me! I pleaded with God to give me the strength and guidance, and since that day, he keeps reminding me it is okay to feel down so he can lift me up!

One of the most rewarding things is having close friends to lean on and speak God’s promises into my forest fire. (or so it feels like somedays)

They are “buckets of water to my forest fire.”

James 4:7-10 –below stuck out to me this week to bring it ALL my FIRE to God.

7Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. 9 Grieve, mourn and wail. Change your laughter to mourning and your joy to gloom. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.

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